I don’t think anyone has truly understood my humor until this year
Thank you God finally:)
That moment when you think you’re really close friends with someone but they just see you as a… Friend
Hm Kind of hurtful to be honest :( sighh making friends is hard and I wish it weren’t
Today I studied for a Stats test that is on Friday and felt so proud.
WOW my standards are low
In addition: that was the only school related thing I did today lolz
I love snapchat stories. Judge meh people but they’re literally like 60 sec vlogs and I love vlogs
To be honest I was pretty unenthusiastic for MTC this year. Not a lot of my close friends were going, and I really just wanted to rest and recharge for school. But unsurprisingly, by the end of the weekend I found myself really unwilling to leave.
I really wanted to avoid that spiritual “high” this year mainly because I just wanted to watch and observe. But despite my attitude (and some ongoing doubt), healings occured and people were definitely touched. I felt that this year people were especially hungry for his presence. We had this moment on Saturday where we simply kept on worshipping even when the band stopped. It was touching and powerful making worship one of my favorite parts of the conference.
Even though I wasn’t profoundly impacted by the Holy Spirit, I still got to pray for this guy Ethan who was. As I was walking through the crowd I felt like God was telling me to do something rather than to sulk by myself in the back. So I began praying for Ethan simply because he and his brother had been standing there for quite a while. I’m not sure what happened with Ethan, or even if I had the faith that something would but he really got wrecked I think. It was cool to see, and maybe a bit of a verification that God really was there. :)
So here I am, still in love with God but kind of sailing through rough waters with my faith. I want to figure out how to really love God without having to be so shooken up all the time - I’ve realized that I rely on emotions so much so that I never really leave room for my faith to grow on its own. I just want a stronger foundation.
But, it was still amazing and I miss that bubble a lot even if though I’m exhausted as I write this. During lunch. In school. Being antisocial.
Thank you God for great friends and a great weekend. Will be back soon
I was super quiet and almost moody today just because I kind of always suffer from a post MTC depression. It’s okay though, will get over it.
Still digesting my thoughts, about 7 people asked me about MTC today and I answered with some pretty crappy answers. I just need a bit more time to organize everything. Still, it’s encouraging that so many people are interested!
Must not be so emotionally detached and cold when I cannot easily find answers to hard and deep questions.
Reflection post and updates to follow. I prometh.
back into the stream of real life. leaving the bubble of MTC.
It was a crazy great long weekend. Exhausting but worth it.
Talked to Zach and Raymond until 1 last night. Woke up this morning very energized nevertheless.
Will come back to this post later, check out my long post about MTC DAY 2 on Churches of Troy! (Link in previous post)